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Dear Beautiful Soul

A Girl In A Complex World

Dear Beautiful Soul,

I see you.
I see how much it hurts. The pain just keeps multiplying and spreading. And yes! How right you are in thinking that the saying “Time heals all wounds” is a big old dirty pile of poo-poo.

You’re right! No one understands. How could they?! It’s frustrating, I know, sweetheart. But it’s not their fault. Nobody else on God’s great earth has walked in your exact footsteps.

So no, they don’t understand the kind of pain that bends you over and brings you to your knees like you were punched in the gut … but 10x worse than that.
They don’t understand the kind of pain that hurts so much it’s wordless and that itself makes it hurt even more because you can’t say it out loud.

Beautiful Soul, I see you. I’ve heard every single time you’ve laughed and I’ve held you every time you’ve cried. How do you think you’ve made it this far?  

Repeat after me: I am going to be ok.

I know you feel safe in the bathroom so stand in front of that mirror. Say it –  again and again and again. That tear-stained face being reflected at you … tell her …

She’s going to be ok.

I am going to be ok.

I AM going to be ok!



Honey, I need you to hear me. LISTEN TO MY WORDS … ! I know it’s scary to trust what anyone says but you and I, we are the same! We are in this together. I am that little whisper you sometimes hear. You told Dr. Jeff about me. You told him that you wish you could hear from me more often and that I would be louder.

Well, here I am! I will become louder the moment you start to listen and trust that I, your true Self, want nothing but the best for you!
I’ve got you.

I know it’s been a horror beyond words. Betrayal doesn’t cover it. Neither does violation. Neither does grief or heartache. No word exists for this kind of thing.

Sometimes it splits you, opens you, and spreads you apart. You find yourself trying desperately to hold together the pieces that are left. It hurts, to not know who you could have been, had things been different.

Except, it wasn’t.

Its time to accept the person you’ve become, and stop trying to be a version of you that only exists in your imagination. Pay attention to the person staring back at you. Love her!

That girl came through a crucible of fire to be standing here today. That girl is a beautiful soul.

Have Mercy

A Girl In A Complex World

You’re gonna need to help me out today, God.

If anyone in my life needs encouragement today, it can’t come from me because I am in need of the same thing. I just can’t blow sunshine up anyone’s ass today, Lord, so I ask that you send them whatever it is that they need, please.

If it is possible, can you also please remind me that millions of other human beings through history have lived through worse situations than me and still managed to make art, and find joy, and give hope and resist despair? Could you do that for me today?

In fact, send us all a little reminder that we can suffer and still be ok. May our faith be stronger than our fear.

And help us remember to drink some water. My body really needs some hydration.

In other words, have mercy on us.

Amen

Dear Sensitive Soul …

A Girl In A Complex World

I know how incredibly hard a lot of things are. Most ppl don’t understand what you go through and that can make you feel so alone. The things that others do with ease are not that way for you. Social gatherings cause huge anxiety in the days leading up to the event and sometimes just getting to the event itself is a major task.

You’re not like other ppl and that is okay. Your heart was built differently. Your gentle side can leave you ruminating about conversations or comments, for days, causing you to lose sleep. I know how hard it is to “fit” into a world that doesn’t feel like it was made for you. That’s because you are a very sensitive soul. 

We only make up a small percentage of the population. You are a gift to this world. Please remember this. To a sensitive soul, love is pure ecstasy. Music is Godlike. Heartache is a wide-open wound. The visual beauty in nature is wild, jewel-drenched bliss. Tension and conflict affect you right down to a cellular level.

Being a highly sensitive soul will lead you through many dark, but incredibly bright moments throughout your life. You have a gift many ppl will never experience. You find magic in places that others never even consider looking.

But it hurts. I know. I see you. I feel you. I understand. It’s all so overwhelming and you are exhausted. Pause and take a breathe. Let me remind you that the ocean never apologizes for its depth and the mountains never apologize for the space they take up. Neither should you!